She Blogs.

You know the urge to know everything? Inside us, there's this "Curiosity Infliction" that wants to find an answer to any sort of oblivious question and dig through the loopholes and finally feel the satisfaction of getting enlightened by the hidden truths of one's existence. You have it too, right? No? We like to interact, whether it is with humans, dogs, cats or just pets and animals in general and even extraterrestrial species (oh hi Aliens! if you're reading this by any chance). Let us narrow down these interactions to just among the humankind. We know at some point we all are a bit petrified to start an interaction with a total stranger. Alright so as we move on to have this interaction, we start realising if this interaction is effective and if we are enjoying it and would we like to be real friends with them? Fast forward to the situation where you are starting to know that person a bit better. And suddenly that "curiosit...

Do you know the feeling when you don’t have the energy to stand up and do something? I’m not talking about being physically weak, I’m talking about the time when you just feel  Empty inside. When you know that life could be better if you would get up and do something about it, but still you don’t move. Actually, it’s not about “you don’t move” , in the situation which I’m talking about, “you cannot move” . Even if you try to get up, your mind paralyses your whole body and drags you down again and again, and then at the end of the day, it makes you feel miserable about yourself. You don’t know the reason why is it happening, you just feel like a lost soul wandering around without a purpose. This is not an existential crisis, as in this situation you know you have to live, work, hustle and enjoy for the sake of the life you have been given. But yet again, even after knowing all this, you don’t feel like doing an effort to work, because somewhere in the back of yo...

Hey, Do you consider yourself to be a "grown up"? It starts when you get the realisation of where your life's heading to and you don't want it to be this way and you just ask yourself, "What the hell is happening??" They say "grow up" but they don't know about the days when you cried out loud in that shopping centre to get that toy, without caring what others think. All you wanted was your mum's attention and that toy and they still don't know, that now when you cry in that bathroom covering your mouth so that no one can hear you, you know you've grown up. Every day you're a new person , you have somewhat more knowledge and experience than you had the other day. Not only that but every new day, you grow up to know yourself a tiny bit more. I'm not the same person I was a year ago ! I struggle every day because I have to prove something, not to others but to my own self, that I am doing better today than ye...

So hey, I'm Upasana Deka, a Homosapien living somewhere in our loving Earth. (I'm trying so hard to sound cool, but this isn't happening anytime soon) - ooh that rhymed ! Okay after such horrific starting, if you are still reading then WELCOME TO MY VERY FIRST BLOG. I'm new here. I don't know how to or what to write in a blog, but I guess I needed a public domain to write my feelings out, to the strangers who care to read, so here I am. A normal mainstream teenager I am, who opted for Science in school and have big dreams and aspirations to fulfil. But I fear I don't get stuck in the middle of nowhere. I can't see myself following the same routine every day. I love challenges, and rather than being stuck at a place, I'd chose to face a problem and kick its ass off. (yeah, we teens use that. Might be inappropriate for some who are reading this, but I'm going to use some words, 'cause even though Life's beautiful but it still is a bi...