All Grown Up?

Hey,
Do you consider yourself to be a "grown up"?

It starts when you get the realisation of where your life's heading to and you don't want it to be this way and you just ask yourself, "What the hell is happening??"

They say "grow up" but they don't know about the days when you cried out loud in that shopping centre to get that toy, without caring what others think. All you wanted was your mum's attention and that toy and they still don't know, that now when you cry in that bathroom covering your mouth so that no one can hear you, you know you've grown up.

Every day you're a new person, you have somewhat more knowledge and experience than you had the other day. Not only that but every new day, you grow up to know yourself a tiny bit more.

I'm not the same person I was a year ago !

I struggle every day because I have to prove something, not to others but to my own self, that I am doing better today than yesterday. But honestly, I'm not satisfied every day.

I know these lil' things won't matter in a long run, but "Life Is Happening"! It won't stop for a moment. Just thinking how every moment is passing by and how you can't change the last second that just passed by.

I came across this quote by John Lennon, about a year ago :

“Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.”

And it hit me like a mountain..

Yeah because of this quote, I became somewhat more mature that day to understand a bit more about life.

"Growing Up" is far too overrated for me now. Yes it's happening I am growing up, my desires will change, my behavior will change, my priorities will change, my plans will change, my life will take a great leap up or down the rollercoaster, but what will remain the same is what I chose that day in past that has led me here in the present.

Did I choose to stay still and metaphorically lifeless in that bed, or I chose to get up and get engaged in the hustle to enjoy these phases of life?

~The Inquisitive Lass